Weight, College, and Lovely Life

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     Pretty sure I've already gained my freshman 15. I'm so nervous about getting to the gym and seeing my current weight. But I will do it. I will go and confess to myself about how overweight I am. I turn 18 on the 24th of October so I want to try to lose 18 pounds by then as an awesome birthday gift to myself. <3 I'm really hoping I can do it. I need a little bit of encouragement though. I can't always do things on my own. So as for my weight issue, I will be doing my best to eat healthier and always take water over anything else, plus going to the gym and exercising. I'm pretty sure I can handle that. Yoga will be my best friend too. I need to take it easy on myself so I don't strain myself. The last time I weighed myself before I came here, I weighed about 200.8 lbs. That's just, soooooo bad. I mean, I look like it. It'll definitely help my self esteem if I'm able to do it. :) 

     I had my first couple of examinations for college already, one for Pre-Calc (because I'm not that smart with math), one for Chem 161 (Which I SUCK at), and then I had one for Bio 140 (Which I can't remember much of). I go to my classes but I get sick very frequently, and when I get sick, I get fucking sick. It's just terrible! There's absolutely no fucking good reason for it either, I drink juice and I have no allergies or anything medical like that. I just get sick.... It sucks. But anywho, my profs are really accommodating but I just feel bad because my parents are helping me pay for this 44,000 dollar education and I miss class because I get a bad flu or cold about once a week. This was the situation in high school as well and part of the reason I missed about half the year due to illness. Whitworth University has such amazing and understanding people but I feel so bad missing all the time. 

     Besides that, a lot of stuff has been happening in my nonexistent love-life. The guy I like, most likely has no idea I like him, which kind of sucks considering we only have one class together and I really want to invite him to go to homecoming with me. I'm pretty sure something will happen to where someone else will ask him and I'll just get rejected like a loser.... Going with friends is always fun. And the things that are going on with the guy I USED to like, are just.... not going great or good. We were best friends and then we dated which I will say was pretty awesome if you just take away the drama haha and then we became friends again. But I mean, I'm no longer in his life and he's no longer in mine really, but he was my best friend and it's really hard being that one friend out of your group of friends who goes to an out of state school. I've been able to keep up a little since facebook allows me a morsel of information as to what's going on in my hometown. But I mean, I really don't know anything unless my friends tell me. What little friends I do have back home anyway.

     I know I shouldn't complain, I mean.... I'm a freshman in college. What do I know? Right? But hey, if you'd like, send me an email, anonymously of course. You can catch me at my email address. It's here so go ahead and write me anything you'd like. Of course I'll read it and hopefully no one will spam me but I'm just curious as to who actually reads my stuff. I can handle criticism pretty well but I'm also open to suggestions. So yeah, leave a comment, send an email, and/or +1 my blog. I hope you enjoyed it. Thanks for reading. <3

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